Inspired by a recent post I read by fellow ‘male blogger’ Arran from Halo Of Thoughts called Male Body Confidence & Image I wanted to create my own post about my own history and insecurities with my body. Also to further raise awareness that men do struggle with body issues and that guys you are NOT ALONE.
I have what is called an ‘Endomorph’ body type which basically means I have a pear shaped body, rounded head, wide hips and shoulders, with lots of fat on the body, upper arms and thighs so not something I’m particular proud of.
I’ve never had what you call the ‘Perfect Body’ I mean what does that even mean? As a youngster I was very active, a lot of outdoor sports, but when I started High School it wasn’t deemed ‘cool’ so I regretfully stopped it all. Also like thousands of other children I encountered bullying, so I think this also played a big role in my eating habits and how I gained so much weight. I’m not saying that’s the main reason, as after all it was me who entered the food into my mouth, but it definitely played a factor.
When I look back it does make me sad, as I missed out on so much and was always so conscious of the way I looked. I remember being as young at 10 on a beach in Greece with my family and asking my mum if I could wear my t-shirt on the beach as I didn’t want people seeing my body, which is super sad but that mentality has stuck with me my whole life.
Now as a 25-year-old man, I feel I’m confident in many ways but still the way I look is something I really struggle with. For example I feel really self-conscious if getting changed in front of people, and constantly scrutinise the way I look in clothes. My weight fluctuates so much, and is always on my mind when out shopping looking for new clothes. I currently weigh over 15st and just about fit into my favourite brands XL clothing so I really need to clean up my act and do something about it!
I’m sick of having to strategically plan where I sit in a restaurant so I’m not exposed to people seeing my overhang, or having to wear a coat on a nice day purely due to the fact I don’t want the wind to press my clothing up against my car crash of a body. There are so many things I would love to be able to do in my life which I can’t/wont due to the way I feel about myself.
I found a few great articles on the subject of Body Image –
I’m hopeful that in the future, I will look the way I want to look. I will be that guy on the beach with no shirt on playing beach volleyball with not a care in the world about who maybe looking at me. I know it’s a long way off but it will happen, and in the mean time I/we just need to remember the below –
You Are Not Alone
Do Not Compare Yourself To Others
Don’t Be So Hard On Yourself
Talk To Someone
There Is No Such Thing As Perfect
We All Have Demons
A big THANK YOU to Arran for his post so make sure you check that out! As without that I don’t think I would have written this today! Its triggered certain memories of my past which aren’t all good, and has spurred me on to actually do something about it!